Just Because You Can’t See It, Doesn’t Mean It Isn’t Happening

There’s such a rollercoaster of emotions you go through when you’re working towards creating change in your life but not seeing results. It’s disheartening, it’s frustrating, it’s overwhelming. You give up and then decide you can’t so you try again and come back with a vengeance. Up and down, round and round. It’s more of a mental game than anything.

Everything exists as energy first before it becomes tangible. As one of the four elements, earth (representing the physical realm) is the slowest moving energy because it’s the most dense. It’s the final stage. It takes the most amount of time to change and transform. Anyone who has ever tried to grow a garden would understand. Most of the time we focus entirely on only the physical actions when it comes to creating change, which is an important aspect. But it’s not the only one. If you want to create physical change, shift your energy first. Because when you become an energetic match to the thing you’re trying to create, it will materialize much faster. To grow a garden, become the gardener.

Even still, some things just take time. The key is to be unwavering in your faith, your energy, your actions, your mindset. The key is to not give up. Your whole life can change from one day to the next. And while it may appear to others that you received this “overnight” success, you know how long it took beneath the surface to get there. Before we see a seedling emerge from the dirt, it first does a lot of growing that we can’t see. It grows its root system, the foundation for its future growth. Just because you can’t see something doesn’t mean it isn’t happening. When you plant a seed, you don’t dig it up everyday to see if it’s growing yet. You tend to it and trust that it will. Creating change or trying to reach a goal is the same.

I’m writing this as a reminder for myself just as much as I’m writing it for you. Whenever I find myself in this position, I think back to previous instances where I was in the same position and everything worked out fine. I find myself thinking about when I moved to Barcelona to do my Masters degree. I had found a school I loved and decided I was going to do it (I had no idea how, but my mind was made up). Some life stuff happened that gave me a huge fire under my butt to succeed. I gave myself no other choice— there was no way it wasn’t happening. To me, the best revenge is happiness and success. So everyday I studied for the placement test I’d have to take. I did research about how to apply for a visa. I made my desktop background at work a cityscape of Barcelona. Even though I was determined, I was so stressed and overwhelmed at every step. I spent a lot of time crying in frustration at how confusing everything was. But even through all of that, one step at a time, I managed to figure it out (with a lot of help from others). I did the placement test and did well. I did the interview and it went well. I got accepted to the school and it was such an incredible feeling of success, but I wasn’t out of the woods just yet. I submitted my visa application and waited to hear back. At this point I had never prayed so much in my entire life. I just kept visualizing receiving it in the mail. I cried every time I thought about it, I had never wanted anything so bad in my life. Everyday I would race home to check the mailbox to see if I got it yet. Then the day finally came and I had gotten my visa! I was in as much disbelief as I was in understanding that of course it worked out this way. Then there was a race against the clock to find an apartment. It honestly didn’t feel real. I remember getting off the plane, my first time in Europe, and just feeling like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We went up to our apartment, signed the lease, and the landlord and concierge left. I distinctly remember thinking yesterday I was living my regular life in Canada, and today I’m living a completely new life in Spain. It was so hard to wrap my head around because it was such a monumental change. Something that happened so slowly and then at Mach speed. It reminds me of that John Green quote: “I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.” I started my initial deliberations and research in the winter of 2017. By February 2018 I was fully committed. By September I was living in another country doing my Masters, checking two life dreams off my bucket list. My spiritual awakening begun after I moved back home (a story for another time), so this all happened before I learned about manifestation.

That whole experience became my reference point whenever I set out to create massive change in my life. I had done it before, I can do it again. And if you’re in a position where you haven’t been able to create a big change, know that I was once in your position, and that I did it. If I can do it, you can do it. Do it scared, do it stressed, do it overwhelmed, do it frustrated. Just keep taking one step at a time. I learned so much from that whole experience. One of the main things being that it’s not worth stressing out because things usually work out perfectly fine (I’m still learning that).

I find myself on the cusp of change again, in that waiting period with my breath held. Like when the rollercoaster makes its slow ascent and you’re teetering right on the edge of being launched into a terrifying and thrilling path. I keep saying it because I need the reminder, and maybe you do too: just because you can’t see it yet, doesn’t mean it isn’t happening. Your whole life can change from one day to the next.